The confusion settles on my heart, and my mind. I can't stop thinking about how things could have been different, or how great things would be if I just let them... but I can't shake the feeling that my heart felt after believing that I had found my true love, only to be disappointed. I don't want to feel like that again, so I'm doing the only thing I can think of...I'm making it impossible for my heart to truly belong to someone else again, because honestly, I don't know what else to do...
I know I have strong feelings for a certain someone, and these feelings are completely new. I haven't felt this way in a really long time, and it happened in such a short time that it scared me. But, how do I know it's love?? The love that I know is one that a mother shares with her child. I can sight that love immediately when I see it,...but how do I know that this is real love if I've never really loved before??
One thing I know that is troubling me is my trust issues. I have been hurt so many times before, that how can I put my everything into someone else, and expect that they'll do the same for me, when so many times I've been burned in the past?? I wish I could just shake all these feelings away, and just do what my heart wants to do. When I'm not with you, I'm thinking about you.... When I see you, my heart skips a beat and I become short of breath. When I don't see you, even after a day, my hearts longing for you because just being around you makes me feel whole. My heart is telling me that it needs you, it wants you, and most importantly, that it loves you, but my brain isn't listening. How do I make it listen??!
I want to be loved, but not just by anyone, by you... I want to wake up with you by my side, knowing that you love me even more then I love you...I want all that, and more... but I need time to heal. My wounds are still fresh, and my heart is still recovering from the last man who took advantage of the love I have to offer. I wish I could just make it whole, but that's why God put you in my life. To show me that love is real, and that it's okay to be hurt, and be cautious, as long as you're with the right person who will cherish those feelings, and ensure that it never happens again. Maybe you were put in my life to help me heal, and help me understand what love is really supposed to feel like.
I know I will make mistakes, and as perfect as I like to seem...I have my flaw. But, the one thing I can guarantee you is this... When my heart is whole again, I will give you all of it. You will never doubt my love, or my commitment, because I will show you everyday how grateful I am to have an amazing person in mine and my daughters life. Just be patient with me, and time will show you how amazing this love could be. I don't just want to love you, I want to fall in love with you, and grow with you. I want to know, and understand, how it feels to be completely in love...
...I want you to be my fairy tale ending..
I know I have strong feelings for a certain someone, and these feelings are completely new. I haven't felt this way in a really long time, and it happened in such a short time that it scared me. But, how do I know it's love?? The love that I know is one that a mother shares with her child. I can sight that love immediately when I see it,...but how do I know that this is real love if I've never really loved before??
One thing I know that is troubling me is my trust issues. I have been hurt so many times before, that how can I put my everything into someone else, and expect that they'll do the same for me, when so many times I've been burned in the past?? I wish I could just shake all these feelings away, and just do what my heart wants to do. When I'm not with you, I'm thinking about you.... When I see you, my heart skips a beat and I become short of breath. When I don't see you, even after a day, my hearts longing for you because just being around you makes me feel whole. My heart is telling me that it needs you, it wants you, and most importantly, that it loves you, but my brain isn't listening. How do I make it listen??!
I want to be loved, but not just by anyone, by you... I want to wake up with you by my side, knowing that you love me even more then I love you...I want all that, and more... but I need time to heal. My wounds are still fresh, and my heart is still recovering from the last man who took advantage of the love I have to offer. I wish I could just make it whole, but that's why God put you in my life. To show me that love is real, and that it's okay to be hurt, and be cautious, as long as you're with the right person who will cherish those feelings, and ensure that it never happens again. Maybe you were put in my life to help me heal, and help me understand what love is really supposed to feel like.
I know I will make mistakes, and as perfect as I like to seem...I have my flaw. But, the one thing I can guarantee you is this... When my heart is whole again, I will give you all of it. You will never doubt my love, or my commitment, because I will show you everyday how grateful I am to have an amazing person in mine and my daughters life. Just be patient with me, and time will show you how amazing this love could be. I don't just want to love you, I want to fall in love with you, and grow with you. I want to know, and understand, how it feels to be completely in love...
...I want you to be my fairy tale ending..
